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Mm -hmm.

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I'm glad you didn't have any trouble
arriving today.

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Thank the Lord for that.

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Sorry I'm late.

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Hello Abigail.

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Pleased you're here.

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Well, now that it seems everyone has
arrived, we can begin.

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My name is Gabriel.

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And as many of you know, I have been
with this church now for over five

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I found my way here after...

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decades of struggling with my own inner
demons.

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And make no mistake, I would not be
sitting here before you today if it

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for this church and the power of our
Lord.

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What I'd like to do today is go around
the circle and have everyone share their

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stories with us.

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You've all made a conscious effort to be
here today and remember whatever is

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shared, whatever you say stays.

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strictly between us.

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We are here to listen and support.

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Hello?

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Now with that being said, Andrew, I'd
like you to read the preamble.

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We're a fellowship of men and women who
share their experience, strength and

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hope with each other that may solve
their common problem and help others to

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recover from alcoholism or any other
addiction they may have.

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The only requirement for membership is a
desire to overcome their addiction.

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There are no dues or fees for membership
and we're all self -supporting through

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our own contributions.

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We are not aligned to any sect,
denomination, politics, organisation or

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institution.

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Let's not engage in any controversy.

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Neither endorses nor opposes any causes.
Our primary purpose is to stay sober

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and help others to achieve sobriety and
purity along with the help of our Lord

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and Saviour, Jesus Christ.

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Now, let's open it up to the floor. Who
is going to be brave enough to start?

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My name is Isabel and I'm an alcoholic.

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My relationship with alcohol began
because I was in an abusive relationship

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and was made to feel pretty worthless by
my ex -partner.

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Unfortunately, I got myself out of that
relationship, but obviously my

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confidence took a massive hit and I
started to go out more and more.

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And I knew that alcohol was the only
thing that would give me that wonderful

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feeling. You know, make me feel
beautiful and sexy and all those things

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wanted to feel.

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So I thought that was the relationship I
had with alcohol, you know, that it was

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fun.

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Fast forward a year and I was drinking
half a gallon of vodka a day.

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At the end of my drinking, I was
drinking around the clock and had to

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drink just to get through.

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Physically, my hands would shake and...

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I had to have a drink every couple of
hours.

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I remember one day I was at work and I
had this moment

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of clarity.

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I looked at myself in the mirror and I
realised alcohol

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was killing me.

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I was powerless against alcohol and I
needed help.

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That's why I came here.

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The biggest gift the centre has given me
has been codependency.

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So when I first came here, I was exposed
to all the different programmes.

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But, yeah.

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On codependency, lightbulbs went off and
I realised...

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I had taken care of everyone and
everything, but I

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didn't take care of myself.

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Can you hear me?

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Laura, what do you think about sharing
your story with the group today?

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Hi, everyone.

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So I'm Laura.

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And a few years ago, I lost my four
-year -old daughter, Matilda, in a

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accident.

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And that led me to making some bad
decisions in my life.

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I started smoking weed to numb the pain
and before I knew it I was tricking the

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GP into giving me some painkillers on
prescription and getting addicted to

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codeine.

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After a while the codeine wasn't enough.

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So a friend said he knew someone who
could supply fentanyl so I started on

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At worst I was on 60 fentanyl lozenges a
day.

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I didn't know I was addicted.

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They just took the pain away and took
the edge off life, really.

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The last few years were destructive in
many ways and caused a lot of harm.

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I still wasn't ready to accept that I
had a problem because I was so scared of

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it being taken away, even though it was
affecting me so badly.

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I ended up overdosing and in hospital
and not knowing what had happened.

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I was so scared when I saw the fear on
my parents' face.

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And I saw how much harm I was causing to
the people I cared about the most.

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I knew I had a serious problem and I had
to get help.

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So once I'd admitted it and I'd spoken
to somebody, and shared what I've been

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going through, what I've been dealing
with.

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That was the best feeling I'd had in a
long time.

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That feeling of being heard and being
seen for the first time.

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That was the first true feeling I'd had
in such a long time.

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So that started my recovery and learning
about this addiction.

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Because I knew it was causing problems
in my life, but I didn't know, I didn't

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see it as an addiction.

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That may sound naive, but once I started
learning about addiction, that started

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my road to recovery.

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How would you feel about sharing your
story?

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Yeah, sure.

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Hi, I'm Darren. I'm an addict and an
alcoholic.

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I haven't taken anything for three
years, but I'm

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struggling at the moment, and I came
here today to spend some time with

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who know what I'm going through.

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To people out there who might be
contemplating getting help, just take

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You will never regret it.

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It's the reason I'm still alive today.

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Just over three years ago, I was in a
really dark place, taking copious

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of drugs and alcohol, and one day I was
found on my kitchen floor.

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I was rushed to hospital, and my heart
stopped.

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35 seconds.

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Legally dead, they said.

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But if it wasn't for the doctors and
especially a nurse called Natalia,

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I wouldn't be here today.

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I asked her for help and she pretty much
saved my life.

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We still talk. I speak to her once or
twice a month.

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I found out a couple of weeks ago she...

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She brought a little puppy and she
called it Darren, which is kind of

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funny but heartwarming at the same time.

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But speaking to her kind of reminds me
that, you know, you're never on your

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There are people out there if you want
help.

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There are people that have been through
what you're going through and are on the

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other side.

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We never know when those dark days are
going to come.

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And sadly, they will visit us again at
some point.

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But there's people out there to help
you.

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And those dark days are the toughest.

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They're the hardest.

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And, you know, we can struggle through
it.

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But not today.

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I'm glad I'm here.

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And I'm happy to be alive.

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Thank you.

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Please. Hello? What service do you
require?

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Please. Hello?

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Where is the help required?

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Post 1 -1.

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Yes. I need the police.

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Is anybody there?

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Yes.

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I need the police. I can't hear anybody.

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Is anybody there?

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Yes, I need assistance. Can you hear me?

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Hello?

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Hello?

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Hi, this is Chloe.

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I can't take your call in a minute.
Leave a message and if you're lucky, I

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get back to you.

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Chloe,

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it's me.

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Listen, I don't have much time, okay? So
I need you to call me back as soon as

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you get this.

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I've been taken somewhere and I don't
know where I am.

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I've tried calling the police and I
can't get through to them so I need you

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call them for me, okay?

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And ask them to track my phone or
something.

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Okay.

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Love you.

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Bye.

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Abigail?

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Mum, it's me.

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Abigail, can you hear me?

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Mum, listen, I don't know what's
happening with my phone, but if you can

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me, I need you to call the...

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Yes, look, look.

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Something's wrong with my phone. I don't
know what's going on.

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Hello?

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Look, I've been kidnapped and I don't
know where I am.

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Thank you.

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Sarah, may I ask you to lead us in the
serenity prayer?

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Thank

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you,

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Sarah. That was lovely.

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Well, we've all heard from...

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Pretty heavy stories here today.

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Some dark times, some evil subject
matter.

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But together we can get through this.

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We have each other for support, always.

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And I know that very soon you shall all
lead lives of purity

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and freedom.

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In the name of our Lord.

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I'd like to do something a little
different this week.

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I would like to say the Lord's Prayer of
Sacrament in remembrance of his flesh

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and blood that he sacrificed for us.

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John!

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O God, the Eternal Father, we ask thee
in the name of thy Son, Jesus

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Christ,

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To bless and sanctify this bread.

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It's okay.

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It's only bread and holy water.

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It's not going to hurt you.

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To the souls of all those who partake of
it.

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That they may eat in remembrance of the
body of thy son.

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And thus witness, O God, the Eternal
Father,

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that they be willing to take upon them

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the name of thy Son, and always remember
him,

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and keep his commandments which he hath
given

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them, that they may

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always have him.

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Peace.

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Welcome, Abigail.

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You've done ever so well to make your
way here.

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Where am I?

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Your home.

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This isn't my home.

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What's going on?

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I want to go back to my real home.

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Ah. It would appear Abigail still has a
lot to learn.

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What do you mean?

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Who are you people?

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We are your liberation, Abigail.

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Take me home.

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This is your home.

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What are you talking about?

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We've cleansed you.

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We've rid you of all your demons.

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What do you mean?

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Your demons are no more.

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All your sins.

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Your pain.

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Gone.

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You're free.

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I don't understand.

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You came to us seeking solace.

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Wanting a new life.

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And that is what we have given you.

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A new life.

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A new soul.

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I have people.

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Who will be looking for me.

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And they will find me.

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I don't want any part of this.

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This is exactly what you wanted.

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And more importantly, it's exactly what
you needed.

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You're insane.

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I have family.

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I have friends.

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here, locked up.

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We are your saviors, Abigail.

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And you needed saving from yourself.

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And we were the only ones who could save
you.

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And now you can spend eternity free.

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Look, I just want to go home.

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I... Please, just let me go home.

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It's okay, dear.

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Everything's okay now.

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Here.

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Let me help you.

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No!

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I don't know who you are, but I don't
want any part of it!

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You don't understand, Abigail.

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I want... to go home.

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I need to go home.

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I don't want to be part of whatever this
twist is.

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Whatever it is.

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Very well.

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But I must warn you, you will regret it.

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You've sealed your own fate, Abigail.

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Mom?

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night so

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I walk alone in the still of the night.

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No one can express the pain inside.

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But the echoing inside my head.

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I'm drowning.

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Thank you.